World Refugee Day. The power of uncertainty.

Today is the 20th of June, which is World Refugee Day. The day when people all over the world honor refugees, people who were forced to flee their countries because of wars, persecution, and conflicts.

If somebody told me five years ago that I became a refugee I would never believe it. And here I am in 2024 and for more than two years I and my parents have been refugees, or as we are called temporarily displaced persons. To be a forced emigrant, refugee, or temporarily displaced person is not the same as to be an expat and emigrant, as the last ones changed the country by their free will and desire, the first ones did not.

I wrote two articles about what I have learned living abroad, I recommend you to read them, as I do not want to repeat the same insights and conclusions here again, but today on this particular day, and in this particular article I would like to emphasize about the power of uncertainty and its transformational effect.

When there is a war in your country, when you flee from your country because of war everything becomes uncertain for you. From the very first and primitive human's point of view, this uncertainty is terrifying and scarring. But when you find the courage to accept uncertainty and dive deeply into its essence you understand that in this turbulent uncertainty lies great power: the power for changes, new opportunities and possibilities, and power for inner transformation and evolution. This power of inner transformation and evolution changes not only you but has a ripple effect on others for their changes and as a result global changes in humanity.

The power of uncertainty became your new friend driving you to the better version of yourself and your life, that does not necessarily mean money and wealth, that could be a backside of this transformation, but foremost it means changing your mindset, life perception, values, goals, and consciousness.

The power of uncertainty forced me to step out of my comfort zone that I so diligently built all my life limiting my life and myself from the real world and come into complete unpredictability and riskiness, a place where real life exists, a place where evolution is living, a place where new doors could be opened. And these doors could be full of mistakes, and pain, and struggles, and sufferings.... But this is real life that opens our eyes and forces us to go out of the illusion, out of the matrix....

The power of uncertainty forced me to make new choices and make difficult decisions that I would never make in the position of certainty because these choices and decisions are challenging and nobody would give you confirmation whether these decisions and choices are good for you, and what impact they will have on you and your life in future.

The power of uncertainty made me stronger, braver, and most important more fearless.

The power of uncertainty reveals all my vulnerabilities and gives me the energy to accept them and understand that they are not my weaknesses but my great strengths, and my authenticity.

The power of uncertainty painfully disclosed that real life is not a matrix/illusion and silicon/artificial photo, our real life is not a complex of everything that we want to receive/have, there is a lot of everything that we will never have in our life, and I am not talking about material possessions and money itself. There are a lot of hurting things in our life that we cannot change, that we cannot influence, we can only accept them as they are and try somehow to build our life with this background and these painful facts.

The power of uncertainty taught me to adapt and to become more flexible but still be myself in my deep core and essence.

The power of uncertainty opened all my fears, anxiety, negative thoughts and emotions, addiction to suffering, being a victim, and forced me to make all possible and impossible to get out of this trap. Sometimes I have successes, and sometimes I make mistakes and again choose the old well-known paradigm to me and my mind, but then through physical, emotional, mental, and psychological pain I am doing and behaving very differently with the purpose of breaking the system, braking my old behavior, breaking old patterns. That is challenging.

The power of uncertainty woke up me, my bloody soul and spirit, and forced me to come back home to myself, to my soul, and my spirit, shutting up the mouth of my ego.

The power of uncertainty kicked in me to eradicate each tiny hint and sign of a post soviet Union person in myself, understanding who I am and who I am not, who real Ukrainians are and who are not, who the true human being is and who is not.

The power of uncertainty revealed my resilience and desire for change.

I survived the uncertainty of my illness.

I survived the uncertainty of my mom's illness and diagnosis.

I survived the uncertainty of war.

I survived the uncertainty of fleeing from my country.

I survived the uncertainty of forced emigration and being a refugee, a temporarily displaced person.

I survived the uncertainty of the German bureaucracy and transferred myself into a nurse without a degree or special certificate.

At every single period of this uncertainty, I wept and felt inner resistance, negative emotions, anxiety, melancholy and depression, fear and pain. But something inside me that was my spirit guided me and gave me the power to stand up and move further going out of the pattern of being a victim.

These uncertainties changed me drastically, and now I am on the edge of a new uncertainty that I could not predict and could not prepare myself for this situation. And again I am asking God, the Creator, my Spirit, to help me to accept and move further, to find the power of this uncertainty to transform it into a new opportunity.... And again I pray and meditate, reflect, and rethink, asking for the power to accept and find a new door....

Accept uncertainty, it's difficult but believe me it has huge power and potential for change and transformation.

June 20, 2024.